Things We Tell Ourselves
I went to the bank today, and ended up chatting with the teller about yoga. He told me he once went to a class without too much thought about it, and was surprised at how different it was than he was expecting. I was reminded of the first two months that I practiced yoga. I remember thinking, “WHAT am I doing? I don’t even understand what’s happening here.” Even though I felt clumsy, and awkward, and pretty insecure about the whole thing… I also was kind of addicted to how much better I felt when I was done. So it was worth it to keep going, and keep trying. It was after about three months of weekly classes that I finally felt like I could comprehend what my body was supposed to be doing. And THEN I could start to refine the basic actions, focus on breathing… all the stuff we attempt to do with this thing called yoga.
If you’ve never practiced yoga before, its likely that you think of it as “good for you,” or “I know I should do it,” or “I’m not very good at it.”
Maybe your narrative is something else, but I’m willing to bet that there IS an existing narrative. This is a normal and important part of being human: intellectual discernment. We label things, and make judgements about situations and people and things, so that we can understand them. Judgement is not necessarily a bad thing…. but with the process of practicing yoga, comes a decomposition of our fixed judgements, or your “inner narrative.” As you physically start to understand what your body does by default, and how you can start to create the flexibility, strength, and control to adjust that default, your beliefs about what you are capable of, and what is possible starts to also change…
Sometimes the sheer process of practicing will bring these “yoga-piphanies,” as I like to call them. But the more I practice, the more I learn that as my brain will follow my body, I can also switch that relationship around. Body also follows brain, and if you are willing to change the things you tell yourself from:
“I’m not sure if I’m doing it right,” etc…
“I know I’ll get this eventually”
“I’MA BADDASS OUTTAH MY WAY”
Or you know, whatever you’d like to tell yourself… I bet you’ll find the results as interesting as I do.
So I encourage us all to be careful with “these things we tell ourselves.” Your brain and your body are more linked than you think.